She was 36
She had long brown wavy hair
Good smile and heart
She was always looking for love in the wrong places
Always lots of domestic violence
Lots of drinking
She had a couple of partners
The first one was nice – to me anyways – father of my brother and sister – not good to my mom
They broke up but that didn’t end there
My mom ended up in another relationship.
He killed her and he is the father of my youngest brother who was 10.
When my mom passed away I was 13 – it was the loneliest time
I was not yet an adult but not a kid
When my mom passed away I felt I was alone – I couldn’t cry when my family was crying
Immediately after she passed away I stayed with my best friend.
But even my best friends didn’t know what to say
Picture of Clarene Rose Panamick and myself, Cherilyn Panamick, grade 8 graduation. last picture of us together, she died that august, on the 23rd, 1991.
I watched them investigate the field and saw the investigation tape
She died two weeks before high school
I would just cry by her grave on my way to school
And I would just sit there and cry and talk to her